“For me, personally, a mix has the most impact when it feels like I’m watching a movie. With ups, downs, some drama, sentiment, moment of joy, climax and anticlimax. And yes: tension and release.” — originally published on Ambientblog —
When I started working on this mix, its working title was Wonderlust, simply because I liked that word: a variation on wanderlust (‘a desire to travel’) which the Urban Dictionary describes as ‘the desire to be in a constant state of wonder’.
But as the mix progressed, the title didn’t fit very well. There were too many dark and unsettling moments… moment that may evoke their own ‘state of wonder’ but of a completely different kind.
The Questions in Anja Garbarek‘s track are crucial to this mix and gave it its title: a few simple questions to diagnose severe psychotic disorders, a delusional state of mind. There may be quite a few of these delusional moments in this mix, but they are alternated with moments of joy in an almost melodramatical equilibrium.
More info on https://www.ambientblog.net/blog/2019-01/delusional-mix/
Tracklist:
(first time is the start time, time in brackets is the sample length)
- 00:00 (01:13) Angelo Badalamenti/City Of Prague Orchestra – Mulholland Drive Theme
Mulholland Drive soundtrack, 2001, Milan 74321 89823 2 - 00:59 (00:59) Allesio Ballerini – Wiwanana
Wiwanana OST, 2018, Fluid Audio 054 - 01:43 (01:49) Martin Ptak – Storm
River Tales, 2018, Col-Legno WWE 1CD 20441 - 01:57 (00:32) Goblin – Suspiria (Celesta & Bells)
Suspiria OST, 1977/2012, Cinevox CD OST 702/s - 02:30 (02:04) Jóhann Jóhannsson – Seeker Of The Serpents Eye
Mandy OST, 2018, Invada LSINV203CD - 03:11 (02:57) Monty Adkins – Still Juniper Snow: Distant Waters
Bozzini+, 2018, Huddersfield Contemporary Records HCR19CD - 05:38 (01:08) Anja Garbarek – Questions
The Road Is Just A Surface, 2018, Drabant Music, DM58LPPER - 05:52 (03:17) Gryllus Ábris – Post_02
Post_, 2017, Farbwechsel FARB026 - 08:01 (01:51) Autechre – Sinstrailab Air
NTS Sessions 2, 2018, Warp Records WARPCD364 - 08:30 (02:31) Jessica Moss – Fractals (Truth 3)
Entanglement, 2018, Constellation CST138 - 10:09 (01:58) Rudolf Eb.er – Ishikiri
Om Kult: Ritual Practice Of Conscious Dying- Vol. II, 2018, Om Kult OM-2 - 10:27 (00:25) Anja Garbarek – Questions
The Road Is Just A Surface, 2018, - 11:05 (01:17) Ulnar – Daylight Fireworks
Dreaming Of Sailing Further West, 2017, Colectivo Casa Amarela CCA003 - 11:41 (02:42) Jean C. Roche – Rancho Grande
Birds Of Venezuela, 1973/2018, Sub Rosa SR411LP - 12:05 (03:08) Arve Henriksen – Sanmyaku
Sakuteiki, 2001, Rune Grammofon RCD2021 - 14:12 (02:34) The Newton Brothers – Feel Nothing
The Haunting Of Hill House OST, 2018, Wax Work Records - 16:23 (02:22) Thomas Vaquié – Ecume
Ecume, 2016, Antivj Recordings - 18:31 (02:56) From The Mouth Of The Sun & Seabuckthorn – Lesser Still
We Stayed The Path That Fell To Shadow, 2018, Lost Tribe Sound - 21:21 (00:43) Maria W. Horn – Atropa
Kontrapoetik, 2018, XKatedral XK12 - 21:44 (01:35) Bass Communion – Drugged IV
Reconstructions And Recycling (Bass Communion Remixed), 2003, Headphone Dust BCCD5 - 22:30 (03:07) Alea Saxophone Quartet – Arvo Pärt: Solfeggio
Arvo Pärt Anima, 2017, Col-Legno WWE 1CD 20437 - 24:52 (02:57) BJNilsen – Table Of Hours
Focus Intensity Power, 2017, Moving Furniture Records MFR062 - 26:40 (04:06) Illuminine – Dear, Utopia (feat. Adam Bryanbaum Wiltzie)
#3, 2018, Ferryhouse Productions FHP 42617 - 26:42 (01:27) Michael Fahres – Het Gesloten Ogenblik
Gäbrik (music from the book by Marc Legendre), 2018, Vlaamse Onafhankelijke Stripgilde - 29:33 (02:20) Mathieu St. Pierre – 23.0785729, 143.9554413
These Elephants, 2018, Se;f-released (Bandcamp) - 30:46 (01:22) Janek Schaefer – To Row Against The Tide
What Light There Is Tells Us Nothing (For Robert Wyatt), 2018, Temporary Residence Limited TRR305 - 31:53 (01:05) Mothertape – Problem 4
In Progress Vol. III, 2018, Centrum Sztuki Współczesnej “Łaźnia” - 31:57 (01:54) Murcof – Chapitre VI
Lost In Time, 2018, Glacial Movements Records GMO35 - 33:22 (02:16) Varg, Annamelina – Stonewall Poem
Nordic Flora Series Pt. 5 – Crush, 2018, Posh Isolation 209 - 33:52 (02:03) Ipek Gorgun – Mileva
Ecce Homo, 2018, Touch TO:106 - 34:45 (02:16) Hans Zimmer & Benjamin Wallfisch – Rain
Blade Runner 2049 OST, 2017, Epic 19075800852 - 36:11 (02:47) Machinefabriek – Hanging
Engel, 2018, Self-Released (Bandcamp) - 37:44 (02:30) Adam Mankowski – Próba
Dźwięki Z Offu, 2018, Attenuation Circuit ACU 1013 - 39:06 (03:35) Les Horribles Travailleurs – Keizersrande 4 (ft. Anja Kreysing)
Off Track, 2018, Esc.Rec 62 - 40:53 (01:06) Rudolf Eb.Er – Licht (Unborn Light)
Om Kult: Ritual Practices Of Conscious Dying – Vol. 1, 2018, Om Kult OM-1 - 41:32 (04:47) Claudio F. Baroni – Solo VIII-Air
Motum, 2018, Unsounds 61U - 41:40 (02:41) Ed Alp – RTPVC
unreleased, 2009, private collection - 44:31 (03:00) Monty Adkins – Still Juniper Snow: Spiral Paths
Bozzini+, 2018, Huddersfield Contemporary Records HCR19CD - 47:02 (01:23) Minco Eggersman – Melisma & Gurian
Kavkasia, 2017, Volkoren 73 - 47:30 (02:32) Jacob Lindhagen – Kenopsia
Paces, 2017, 1631 Recordings FR1-015 - 49:14 (02:05) Jonty Harrison – Going Places (2015)
Voyages, 2016, Empreintes DIGITALes IMED 16139 - 50:01 (01:18) Cadeu – Echoic VIII
Echoic, 2018, Esc.Rec 60 - 50:50 (02:50) Colin Stetson – Mothers & Daughters
Hereditary OST, 2018, Milan M2-36952 - 53:35 (01:33) Jóhann Jóhannsson & BJ Nilsen – Carkeys (reversed)
I Am Here OST, 2014, Ash International Ash 11.1 - 54:36 (01:13) Jon Hopkins – Prologue
Monsters OST, 2010, Double Six DS036D - 55:35 (04:07) Brian Eno & Metropole Orchestra – An Ending (arr. Dick Bakker)
Shutov Assembly Live Paradiso, 1999, unreleased